I first met Hal when my host took me to one of his open meetings. In April 2016, I entered the USA with a green card, with a one-way ticket. I wanted to stay exactly one year. I had taken this one year to pause, to remember the good things in life and to see for myself possible future perspectives. I had absolutely no plan and was so burnt out in my head that the energy was not there to actively tackle anything great.
But I had a picture in my head. It showed me as a nomad. And so I let myself drift a little, not without being mindful, but certainly without any concrete intention.
A small insinuating intent: Whenever I really did something with intention and will on this journey, then an insurmountable hurdle seemed to appear in front of me. Interestingly, the detours to avoid the hurdles were then the most exciting and enriching sections of my journey. The very fact that I spent a whole three months on a ranch in Hill-Country, Texas, instead of two weeks, bears witness to these unplanned detours. For example, my plan to get the U.S. driver’s license took time, eventually several attempts and also months. So I exercised patience. For the picture of me as a nomad, not on the camel, but in an SUV, guided me. But I knew deep down that it was nothing I could force.
But now back to the actual story that I want to tell here. Hal was in his mid-50s. He was Lakota. Not only that, he was also a medical man. A real Lakota medicine man. He called his medicine “stalking”.
Stalking as a medicine has nothing to do with the behaviour of a disappointed freeman who is indomitable to his love. Stalking refers to the digging up of thoughts that limit us in our lives. Imagine a little devil and a matching angel on your shoulder, our whisperers, so to speak. Simply put, voices that affect our minds and let us say or do things that inflict pain, sorrow, and suffering on others, and do ourselves no good.
If you look up these thought processes now, you use Hal’s stalking method to talk them about. You start an argument with the voice in your head. This goes so far as to imagine them sitting in the chair opposite. Another person can embody this voice for me, or I slip into the role of the voice and tell a counterpart what I feel, feel, and what my intentions are. Hal is cautiousint of these conversations. Again and again he asks where a thought process comes from. Whether you are willing to get rid of it. What the thought thinks of oneself. On the latter question, the hostile attitude of one’s own thoughts towards ourselves sometimes comes to light and so in these dialogues highly exciting things from the subconscious, sometimes Kurisoses and also great feelings are addressed, from which these thought processes. They may have been helping us at an earlier stage. Often they are no longer in the present day.
The idea behind neck medicine in the sense of healing is that I consciously remember that I let my own thoughts arise. I am the creator of my thoughts, and thus give them the power that then turns against me or against my environment. So I can now take away the energy I have given you. They then fall silent and suddenly life energy becomes free for myself.
If you live your life free from judgement, self importance and self pity – then true awareness and awakening is possible.Hal Robinson
To full consciousness (awareness), says Hal, we only come when we live a life free of the following three thought patterns:
- Judgment and Prejudice (judgment)
- self-exaggeration, selfishness (self importance) and
I then visited Hal a few more Thursdays during my time in Texas. I would never have met Hal, I would never have known his medicine stalking if I hadn’t had the patience to stay in Texas and wait for the course of things to happen. “Stalking” was one of those gifts with which patience rewards me time and again. My tip: Be vigilant for gifts of this kind, even if they send you into the unknown. Who knows what treasure they may have.